List Poem

It’s dark

I shut my eyes

But my mind lets me see

I see a house

I see a family

I see sunshine

A summer's day

A safe place to land

I see blooming herbs

I see fresh grass

I see bird and butterflies

Everyone tries to keep up

I see the house

I see the antiques sets

I see the prestin toys

I see the family again

But then the scene to turns to black

I see nothing

For a time I see nothing

Until I see it all crumble

Until I see struggle

Until I see disease

Until I see loss

Could I have seen more

The happy memories I once had fill with pity

Now I feel sorrow

I feel guilt

I feel confusion

I feel anger

I feel regret

I feel despair

I feel misery

This is the result of the tunnel vision

Of a young child